One of greatest fears in serving the Lord full time is becoming a man of pride and self-sufficiency.
It is so tempting, even today, to be something, versus being nothing. God likes only using one of those and it is certainly not the former.
What can God do with a person who has made up in his own mind that he is something? Nothing. He is good for nothing; the Holy Spirit will not fill him.
What a dangerous path it is then, to go to Fuller. To learn so much, yet with every lesson conclude that I am nothing. And that I am not any better off because I know this or that, or because I have become this or that, or have excelled in this or that.
Therefore, let a righteous man strike me for every inch of pride found in me. For in every inch of pride, there is a mile of uselessness.
I desire to be used mightily by God, so help me to be nothing.