When I was younger, I was a big proponent and reader of apologetics.
Apologetics is the branch of Christianity which tries to defend the veracity of it through reason, data, science, etc.. The older I grew, however, the less important it became to me.
I found that I was using apologetics to hide the holes of unbelief in my heart. And over the years, apologetics would serve as a poor long-term solution to build true and authentic faith.
I have found that my personal history with God has been more faith-filling in my life than knowing every single argument to defend Christianity. Because in the end, it’s not a system that I’m defending, it’s a person. And it has been my relational history with the person of Jesus that has fueled my faith.
I have too many stories to share. I have seen his power too many times. I have seen his goodness over and over in my life. I know from first-hand experience what it is like to trust in the goodness and power of God. My heart is filled with awesome experiences and stories.
That’s why apologetics is not so important to me anymore. I don’t care about presenting arguments to atheists, I feel my stronger weapon is the love in my heart which has been planted in my heart by God himself as exemplified by the history of my life.
