Acquire no gold nor silver nor copper for your belts, no bag for your journey, nor two tunics nor sandals nor a staff, for the laborer deserves his food.

Matthew 10:9

In observing the attitude of my heart when I make life choices, I notice that I have a propensity to learn towards having a plan B when it comes to faith decisions.

This construct is formed from living a life of modest “security”. It is the mindset of a middle class American man who somewhat believes in his heart that he is where is in life because he earned it. And so therefore, my attitudes in regards to life choices in the future often have that spirit in it. It is the spirit of self-dependecy.

In following Jesus, however, I find that there is a radical call for abandoning one’s self-sufficiency. We are told to live by faith, not by sight. I am convicted and inspired by the stories of those recorded in the gospels as well as in the biographies of Christian libraries of men and women who truly lived on the edge of faith and depended upon God for everything.

Their sense of security came not with a well-written plan, but in only being near and trusting in Jesus.

I am praying recently, that I would cultivate a heart which would do that as well. Help me to trust you, Jesus.